This past week I have been very sick with a 13 day(and still counting) migraine like no other...vertigo, dizziness, nausea, vomiting, headache(duh!) and all that goes with it. But in the midst of all this I've been doing alot of dreaming and praying God's plan and will going forth. I was told some difficult news that I may need to put school and my new job ( Yes, a new job;)) on hold because of my health issues going on right now. I immediately said no way. Not gonna happen. I am a determined women on a mission. So I have been searching and searching for answers to get my chronic pain and other health issues to a manageable level so I can live my life.
My point with the story about following God's plan for my life was kinda complex but not so much at the same time. My new job is working part time at the college I am attending part time as a tutor/peer mentor. I get to do things, especially as a peer mentor that I could've really only dreamed of before. I'm starting to see why God put me there. Starting with this blog, then in school, and now a work study job where I can only hope to help as many students as I possibly can that walk through the door. I've dreamed of being able to have a job like this. I initially went to college for community health and was going to work in the public health field. Low pay, crappy hours, but you get to help the people in the world who need it the most.
I'm learning that we all have dreams, if we don't lose our sense of wonder, as the song goes. But its easy to feel like we can't ever accomplish any of our dreams or do anything we want when we have a chronic illness. But God wants us to faithfully follow what he has put before us. Over the last six months or so, I have been nearly every day praying a very scary prayer. "God take me and just do something with me. I don't even care what it is. I'll do what you want." Over and over. I got to a point in my life where I felt like I was going nowhere. I still have a few moments like that and then I remember all that God has brough into my life in the last six months. As soon as I starting praying like this, everything started happening, even in ways that I felt I had no control. Some non-believers might say this is absolutely crazy, but its true. Everything really has fallen into place. I've taken some big risks, especially and believed God would carry me through and he has, and I continue to believe that he will.
I hope that you will either start to, or keep having dreams and that you will ask God to use you and your abilities. Maybe you have abilities you didn't even know you had. I know I'm finding out that I do. It's absolutely amazing. We serve a faithful and mighty God.